Kate Moss confess herself speaking about drugs, anorexia and Johnny Deep


Vanity Fair, december 2012 (see here)

SHE IS INSICURE ALTHOUGH SHE'S LOOKING STRONG
I don't want to be myself, ever. I'm terrible at a snapshoot, terrible.
I blink all the time... tells Kate to Jamie Fox, vanity fair contributor.

On her wedding day, Moss looked to her old friend John Galliano to tell her who to be. As moss recalls: "On my wedding day I'm like freaking out, you got to give me a character" and Galiano said: You have a secret- you are the last of English roses. Hide under the veil. When he lifts it, he's going to see your wanton past!

 HER EARLY MODELING CARIER
Although we're always impressed by all her photos even those from the past, she always pose so secure of her body and self but she admit that wasn't easy from the start

She tells she regretted doing the 1992 photo shoot for Calvin Klein. "I didn't feel like me at all. I felt really bad,  I didn't like it. I couldn't get out of bed for two weeks, I though I was going to die, I went to the doctor  and he give me some valium, thanks god there was Francesca Sorrenti who said "you're not taking that" it was just anxiety.Nobody takes care of you mentally and I was really little.

MOSS ALSO TALKS HOW UNCOMFORTABLE SHE WAS POSING NUDE WHEN SHE WAS YOUNG
"They were always like if you don't do it we're not going to book you again. So I'd lock myself in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt comfortable about it. There's a lot of boobs, I hated my boobs. That picture of me running  down the beach- I'll never forget that, I made the hairdresser who was the only man on the shoot turn his back"

ABOU HER FAME FOR HEROIN-CHIC AND ANOREXY
"I have never ever taken heroin, it was nothing to do with me at all"
"I was thin but that's because I was doing shows, working really hard. You'd get home from work and there's no food, you'd get to work in the morning and there was no food, nobody takes you out for a lunch when I started, just Carla Bruni once took me out for a lunch, she was really nice, otherwise you don't get fed. But I was never anorexic, they know it wasn't true, otherwise I wouldn't be able to work"

ON HER ROMANCE WITH DEEP
During the brief but intense romance with Deep she says she finally felt taken care of. 
"There's nobody that's ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit". Like If I said, 'What do I do?,' he'd tell me. And that's why I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust . Nightmare, years of crying.